fated to me ~

were I gifted
wisdom
sight beyond my eyes –
cards to play
a looking glass unglazed
would e’er there be
a moment
you would come
and I would know
which lines were crossed
as means
for letting go
were I offered
absolution
for every time
I looked beyond
a year began
negated now to loss
a rush of recollection
do you remember
how it was
a breath between
each memory
of us

. . .

places we were one ~

27 Tuesday Jul 2021

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forgiveness, healing, jealous moon, learning, life, love, solace, ties that bind, touch, truth, words

I hated you
I hated me
places we were one
the way my body
listened –
times I should have run
wrapped in my uncertainty
injured by your words
I hated you
I hated me
as every dream unfurled
pages lost to pages
ink spilt blue
black
how may times
a window there –
while I was looking back
hopeful for another
prepared for one more
fight –
a jealous moon
I hated you
for finding me
each night

. . .

across a sea ~

02 Friday Jul 2021

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battle, forgiveness, guns, hurt, kiss, loss, proof we were, scars, sorrows, truth, war, we begin at the ending

this scar
defies surrender
a place I met your eyes
across a sea –
nameless
battlefields
with hurts the same
to hurt me now
moments buried
deep –
for every kiss
some other has grown cold
awaiting us another
would clear a life beyond
ending not
as truth we dared
become
this scar
it won’t forgive
the taste of bitter smoke
a war
I’ve not forgotten
took my heart
and claimed
your soul

. . .

the first to fold ~

27 Thursday May 2021

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abundance, forgiveness, gifts bigger than hands to hold, lessons, loss, love, poet, redemption, truth, verse

of sorrows
I have spoken –
not with tears
or sore regret
for every time the leaving left
a heart not broken yet

an ailing porch
and night pulled close
with nothing much to fear
for the sound of love
returning home –
cross miles
and men – and years

the first to fold
of every sin
begged forgiveness come
without the need for telling
would save us –
every one

came the night
by firelight –
and kept the coffee strong
til morning fell
with none to tell –
of righteousness gone wrong

as scattered verse
by prophets cursed
can’t be one to say –
what reasons came for letting go
and not a one to stay

. . .

stutter ~

20 Thursday May 2021

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blessing, forgiveness, home, life, light, love, nature, seasons, sometimes, spirit memory, truth

once
when there was nothing else
I held you –
soft against my stutter
til you became
more of me remembered
than e’er my heart
could hold
quiet as dawn
upon the snow
then I was leaving
o’er and o’er again
leaving you
with everything I ever
knew to be
quiet in the sky
beyond the stars
you waited
til I was gone –
I could hear you
in the pines
in the quiet desperation
of wings against the night
pressed into the ether
my stutter
my surprise
was to find you once again
forgotten why I left
let me stay
remembering the wonder
of why I came

. . .

the one ~

07 Friday May 2021

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absolution, death, eternal, forgiveness, grief, life, love, memory, sacred divine, soul, spirit, truth

when every sin is counted
spoken save for one
you’ll be the name
I carry to my grave
a silent hallelujah
a penitent amen
one last psalm –
will for my voice be raised

you’ll be the touch remembered
when they lay me in the ground
when lights are dimmed
you’ll be the one I grieve
when ashes fall
soft and blue –
to fill an evening sky
you’ll find my soul
as wings above
the trees

. . .

undone by telling ~

04 Tuesday May 2021

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dreams, forgiveness, grace, home, love, mystery, seeking, surrender, time, wandering, writing in the dark

there’s truth
we scarce consider –
and one we dare not speak
a normal found
in courage lost –
a darkness not so deep

I’ve kept my word
in seeking –
for a path I knew before
hearts undone
by telling –
a truth I waited for

sometimes
the dream falls open –
as I wander with the night
beyond the risk of losing –
to a place of love
and light

when tempted I
by sorrows
for every hurt embraced –
moments of surrender
turn my wanting
into grace

. . .

fault lines ~

30 Friday Apr 2021

Posted by tornadoday in Poetry, Rambling, spirituality, verse

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forgiveness, life, love, memory, redemption, tears, time, trust, truth, weakness, writing in the dark

how is it
you can break my heart
and before I chance to mend
you come around
to break my heart again

you’ve memorized my
fault lines
with weapons still the same –
your eyes meet mine
and then you speak
my name

I’ve forgotten
how it was to heal
don’t care to ever know
the ease of loss
is nothing
if I never see you go

I’ll move the bed
to face the dawn –
I’ll rearrange the room
further from your leaving –
hidden to the moon

. . .

a place to return ~

18 Thursday Mar 2021

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acceptance, evening, forgiveness, grace, joy, life beyond the leaving, love, places, returning, time

evening wears heavy
a hole in my heart –
the lights have all blown away
nights once so dear
have relinquished their hold
as wishes fell stars
into flame

given forever
where might I land –
held to this love
so long
letting go
memories soften
as moonlight on skin –
born of a touch
now etched to my soul

a coming together
for breaking in pieces
returning as life once again –
was love ever offered
a place to return
when tied to the memory
of where we began

. . .