had I strength
for understanding
what was meant of what was said –
had I courage (more demanding)
might I shed a tear instead
might I shatter
in submission –
plead my case to kinder ears
give of all (I have not answer)
what of truth has brought me here

the deepest night
deceives the shadows –
stardust falling from my hair
who was I (how could you know me)
a place of light
unnoticed there
dare I speak of breath so holy
let me not my faith deceive –
come the answers to the questions –
for moments still
as I believe

tis who I am –
the dreamer seeking
proof of love – the power to save
a gentle hand
(as I remember) –
beg me not to turn away
from that bright flame
within the sorrows –
taking more than I can give
blossoms once forgot (a garden)
grows beyond the will
to live

lay me down
without confession –
drive the nails where none can see
bite the tongue
if e’er shall utter –
there my name so tenderly
take the blood – take the telling
I shall not move
from this sweet gale
give me faith to overflowing
for one I knew
(I knew so well)

had I sense
to stay this mercy –
to raise my flag – at last
resigned
to cleave my heart
from all that matters –
and pledge my pen to hapless rhyme
verses meant to stay the ages
stretched between –
before and now
love endures (within my being)
as nothing less
would grace allow