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Denim works better
than satin to soothe me –
t-shirts and bobby socks
shoes I’ve outgrown.
Coffee stirs feelings
of times I spent running –
and I don’t need a sign
to find my way home.
Briar and sassafras –
two kinds of lover.
The one who keeps count
and the one who won’t care –
what’s on for breakfast
of worlds unforgiven.
The roof is still leaking
but it’s warm enough here.

For all that I’ve written
there are pages still waiting –
like the space on the dresser
pearls never laid.
Fruit jars and masons –
tho nothing much matches.
Lacey white linens
I’ve given away.
There are spoons
in the pantry
and uneven tapers –
gates rusted shut
by the way of the bed.
Old maps are kept by the door
in a basket –
and a box full of memory
sleeps neath my head.
Some I can’t touch
for forgetting the reasons –
I kept them at all
of the things that I can’t.
Heaven gets lost
at the mention of leaving –
and there are acres
of promise nobody owns.
Berries grow wild
by the fence (barely standing)
and summer plays hell
with my soul.
Jasmine and lavender
three kinds of daisies –
dried to the line
my blankets to bless.
Hardwood and heartache
are nobody’s business –
as a moment of weakness
to silence confessed.
Life all around
and most barely living –
who I am (someone)
with none to approve.
I’ll sit the night out
as the porch light is fading –
laugh til I cry
and talk til I’m blue.
From the place of my pillow
a view of forever –
and thirty six stars light the ways
I’ve become.
Was a time that I worried
what was thought – what was fated –
and traded (sometimes)
what of me (best) belonged.
But there’s more here
than being (somebody’s baby)
and letting go gave me
a time to hold on.
To what of me mattered
(tadpoles and twilight) –
truths to remember
long after I’m gone.
I rock when I weep
and sing when it’s raining –
I walk when I dream
past the woods (far enough).
Grace never fails
to remind me (of someone)
the girl that I was –
wears the woman I love.
Stirred a lot of memories and feelings with this one…. Thank you… You are a gem and I am thankful to have found your blog….
Oh my, Charles………I worried with this one. Most of it came to me last night as I sat on the porch and the rest this morning. I worried it was too much and too long……..too, too, too. Ultimately, I decided there was a reason (and maybe you’re all the reason I needed). I’m so glad you enjoyed this peek into me……… I’m so glad you found me (and I found you back). ~ Love, Bobbie
Never hold them in, I did that for too long myself. Wrote and tossed them for years before I posted a few to friends. They convinced me to enter an online contest (which I won) and that required you have a WordPress page…. the rest is my brief history. I truly felt this one…. Thank you.
I truly understand that, Charles. I have a young friend who swears I take a minute off his life with every poem I throw away……. 🙂 ~ Love, Bobbie
I understand that too, so while I still post only a few that I scribble, I at least let some hit the page.
And I saw your comment below on thinking you could change the ‘you’ to be more to someone else. Wasted sentiment on the young I guess, so many try to hide who they are or go into things to change what they don’t like about the other, but as we know, some things never change. If each can’t be happy with what they see, don’t keep hoping for the changes to come to make it better. I’ve learned life is too short to waste any more of it. You are a special lady, make sure they realize that….
Charles, I think of much more importance is that I realize it (and remember it). From the perspective of youth, most fail to see the importance of what resides within. You’ll never find truth, beauty, peace, love unless you take it with you. And if you have it within, you don’t need to go searching for anything – for they will line up outside your door for the chance to know what you know. 🙂 Thank you, dear one. Your gentle kindness is truly appreciated and speaks volumes about who you are. ~ Love, Bobbie
What a wonderful portrait. I’m trying to think of something more to say…, but I guess that just about says it all…, and you said it all – beautifully, Bobbie.
…..always,
Pablo
Well, like you, sometimes I don’t know when to stop rambling! 🙂 This came about as the result of ‘catching myself’ in a moment of trying to be someone I am not (for the messed up perception that I would become ‘more’ to someone else if I were not me). LOL! Yeah, I know, pretty warped (even by my standards). 😀 My truth may not be pretty, but it is no less the truth and anyone who loves me ~ well, they will love that truth. As truth goes, I know this – I am beloved by God, and any other identity is pure illusion. Thank you, Paul. ~ Love you, Me
Those who can’t love the truth have a real problem.
xo
Paul
Oh yes, just gorgeous-a stunner…I could do a slow dance to it. Yes. I just loved it! And I love you too, Linda
:)………Thank goodness you do, Linda………. A slow dance sounds perfect………. I’ll pour us some tea and meet you on the porch!! Love you. ~ Bobbie
You have just made me appreciate ever so much more “the girl that I was”! What a burden off my chest, to allow myself to like that girl!
Oh, my dear Rose, you should do more than like her! You should LOVE HER UP!!!! Love her down her toenails for she lives right inside your heart! I love her for I see the woman she has become ~ the woman she was always becoming ~ the girl she will always be! Always, Bobbie
Denim does more, coffee stirs, I rock when I weep and sing when its raining… soooooo many lovely elements to this Bobbie, simply beautiful xx
🙂 I’m so glad you like it, although I’ve known times when I sipped wine while soaking in the tub with a tape recorder on the sink. I sang; I cursed; I cried, I shriveled……….and in retrospect, I could have been a country music star!! 🙂 Thank you, sweetie. ~ All my love, Bobbie
Love this one a lot, Bobbie, as I can truly relate — from a child, I was always tied up in knots trying to come up with other people’s expectations, until at last (after so long), I found the freedom, when I found grace, to be me. Beautifully written — especially the juxtaposition of the mason fruit jars and the wild berries. I’d rather grow as the wild berries than be captured inside a fruit jar!
Indeed, Dee. I think women (especially) struggle with this – comparing themselves to others or trying to fit into someone else’s idea of what they should be. I think it’s true (or it is for me anyway) that wisdom comes with age (aka, ‘I don’t have time to deal with anything but the truth’). I’ve made peace with the fact that there will always be someone smarter than me, prettier than me, skinnier than me, richer than me, and younger than me. But in the business of ‘being me’, I got the market cornered! 🙂 I’m with you……..I’ve always felt I was a blackberry reincarnated anyway! Thank you, Dee. ~ Love you for the wonderful ‘you’ that you are! ~ Much love, Bobbie
Epic poem, the Goddess, the hero …
Thank you. You’re very kind to say so, and I am grateful. I didn’t intend for it to be so wordy, but I guess that’s why it’s called rambling (which I admit to doing well). Truly, thank you. ~ Love, Bobbie